God, speed your love to me...

Walking hand in hand with the Man who stilled the waters.

Friday, May 26, 2006

Artistik Expressions

I've made another blog, Artistik Expressions, this one solely for displaying my projects. You'll find the link under the Links heading (how profound).

Take a look! I'm alway eager for new ideas, and if you see something you like and you want one for yourself, let me know!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

The Old and the New

What a weekend. I yearn for one that is not packed with activities, and yet with every busy weekend that passes I do not regret the events that filled my time. The weekend past was so fun, a time to get together with new friends and old... though mostly new.

It's hard to join new circles. I've done it before, to be sure, and yet each time brings new challenges. It's taken me just over two years to join the circle that is Chris' family, and still sometimes I feel so much on the outside. I still hold back. They don't know the whole me, and I don't know whether to be content with that, or saddened.

The same goes for friendship circles. My "hubby" being the social butterfly that he is (two of us in one couple... how scary is that), I find myself being introduced to friends whenever we go out. I'm blessed with a better-than-average knack for pairing up names and faces, and remembering where they work, who they're related to, and occasionally even siblings, so adding another name to the mental database is not hard. What is hard, for me, is making the connection. Will they remember me? Do they know where I work? My siblings? That I don't like chips or orange pop or coconut, that I'd love to break out of the tiny glass universe that is office work and be spontaneous and creative? That I ache to be married, but have left that decision in his hands, His hands, and struggle every day with my impatience? The words are stuck behind my hesitance.

At times I feel so... involved, accepted even; then I'm struck again by the unspoken warning that I'm not really a part, and that my presence is resented. Or maybe not even resented, just... new. And unfamiliar. Uncomfortable, like a new pair of shoes that you have to break in, and once they're just right you don't remember how they were when they were new.

I want to be an old sneaker friend, so I'll take it one step at a time. New shoes are supposed to pinch, I guess.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Te amo, Arnoldo!

This one is for my brother.


Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I [heart] Mom

To mother's everywhere... how do you put up with this?


To viewers: Bust a gut.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Rainy days...

In honour of a rainy day, I did a Google search for poems about rain, and this is one that I found. This one is dedicated to Laurs, who loves thunderstorms as much as I do. :D

When it rains
The soft grey sky
Drifts to the ground
Brown rivulets
Trickle away
Trickle away
Washing sadness down
Weather vanes
Weep and turn
Weep and turn
Forgetting in the damp and grey
That by and by
The sun will shine
Sun will shine
By and by
The sun will shine.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Some days...

As I was leaving Tim Horton's today after getting my lunch, not one, not two, but three men held the door for me.

Some days I love being a woman.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Back to the real world

Yes, I'm back after my whirlwind trip to Holland. It was great to see Oma (who is doing much better, and may be able to go home soon) and other relatives. I think one of the highlights of my week was getting to meet my 5 nieces and nephews, one of whom is named after me, and another who is a dead ringer for me at age 2. Once I have time to upload some pictures I'll introduce them to you!

It's very strange living in another culture for a week. I'd never realized how much I take everyday conversation for granted until I had to struggle to understand people in another language. I'm proud to say that, although I lost whatever Dutch conversation skills I had when I was younger, I did manage to hold my own in a conversation by the end of my week there. I couldn't speak Dutch, but I could for the most part understand what they were talking about. The relatives all had a great laugh at me when I got so excited about being able to read a road sign, though! And I think I convinced a few of them to come to Canada next fall for a certain momentous event... ;)

But yeah, glad to be back in the true North strong and free. Now I have to catch up on the week's worth of paperwork I missed... my desk looks like a mountain range with all the piles! :S Hopefully one of these days I'll be up to date on all that stuff, but for now I just keep plugging away.

Spring is here! I love seeing the buds on the trees and the brilliant forsythias everywhere! Makes me feel like singin'... if only I could, eh?

AOC this weekend. I'm not a leader, but I will be stopping by in the evenings to volunteer my services with cleanup or cooking. If I time it right I can check out the Coffee House productions too, which should be interesting.

Tha's all fer now! I have a ton of work to do tonight, finishing a transcript, making some cards, and sewing if I get the chance, but I'm not counting on that one.